Moonmaiden68: Weekly Chart Interpretation

[Allegra de Rossi]

Here's her chart. Moonmaiden68, please share any questions or concerns you may have to help guide the discussion.

[Moonmaiden68]

Oohh....sorry I was late posting. I'm so excited for this!! I can't wait to see what everyone says. Lets see concerns I have are mostly my love life. I was in a 12 yr relationship that ended when I was 31. I have been mostly single since. I am now going to be 40 yrs old (this July). I usually fall for guys who have addiction problems. I am sort of in a thing with a guy right now who is a Sag. That's about it =)

[Allegra de Rossi]

"I usually fall for guys who have addiction problems."

...Sun/Mars trine 8th hse Neptune? : )

You have so much Cancer/water in your chart; how is it working out with the Sag guy? Does he have lots of water in his chart as well?...even better, does he have any addications? : P

[Moonmaiden68]

So does that explain it, LOL! Yes...he has Venus, Mars and Jupiter all in Scorpio..he has a Virgo Moon and Cap Mercury and Aries Rising like me. Addictions....yup...sex, drugs, alchohol. Things between us are complicated....very complicated, but I'm totally in-love with him. When I fall in love with someone I cling like there's no tomorrow. I'll elaborate if you need me to. My ex Scorp was also an addict (alcohol).

[Allegra de Rossi]

So you like guys with addictions? Have you fallen into the "victim-saviour" mode that is so often associated with Neptunian aspects? I could see that all your Cancer placements trine to Neptune would make you very receptive and empathetic to those in need (plus a Water Grand Trine in the water houses!), but let's not get carried away here : )

Since you have Venus, ruler of the 7th, in the 5th trine the Moon and Venus, you could also go for a guy that is artistic and creative, and shows feelings in more ummm...healthy ways. Unless these are artists who also happen to be drugged out alcoholics (in which case I wouldn't be surprised : ).

[Moonmaiden68]

You hit the nail on the head, Allegra. I am totally in 'victim-savior' mode. I have been my whole life. I have tried to break that cycle but I just can't. I can remember being little and going around 'saving' all the worms that came out after the rain storms! I also tried to save all the stray cats in my neighborhood much to my mothers dismay :/ I am very empathic towards people and animals in need but, I know my limits. I don't go around just helping anyone. They really have to tug at my heartstrings if they are strangers. If it's someone I know, then I will do whatever I can for them. I feel it's a blessing and a curse. A blessing because I really can see the best in everyone. A curse because I feel like I let people down if I can't help them. There is so much I can say on this topic, but I'm sure you get the picture. I do fall for guys who are creative! I was one of those pre-teens who was 'in-love' with all the rock-stars =) I still am LOL! Music & the arts are a very important part of my life and most of the guys I fall for are into that as well. Not necessarily musicians or artists...but guys who are definitely into the arts (movies, music, art). I wouldn't say I 'like' guys with addictions. It just seems like those are the ones I fall hard for!? Does that make sense? It's not like I go out of my way to find a guy who's an alcoholic to be the love of my life. In fact, I don't go out looking for guys at all. They find me...lol! I met my ex when he was 16. I was 19. He was a friend of my brothers. It was an instant attraction, like a bolt of lightning. One that I had never felt before and I said to myself, this is the boy I am going to marry. I mean, I really felt that instantly. We stayed together for 12 yrs. IT WAS NOT EASY but I loved him totally, completely and un-conditionally. I didn't realize his drinking was out of control until about two yrs into the relationship. Our relationship ended (it was mutual) and I took the break-up really bad. Pretty much closed myself off from the world and about 2 yrs almost to the day of our break-up, my ex tragically died. I was devastated and I needed to go into therapy. Since then I haven't really had any type of relationship (scared!?) until the Sag...who is pretty much responsible for helping me get out of my funk and making me feel alive again. Ok..I rambled sorry!!

[Shygirl]

Moonmaiden, Regarding your vulnerability towards guys with addictions: Is it just about empathizing with their problems & trying to *save* them or does it also have to do with your own self esteem? People who fall into such patterns tend to generally think very little of themselves & subconsciously seek flawed relationships that reinforce their poor self esteem. I wonder if there's a part of you that believes that you are not worthy of affection from a man who has no addiction or any such other obvious flaws. Your first house Saturn can definitely contribute to such negative self image.

[Moonmaiden68]

Hmmm..not sure. I don't feel as though I have poor self esteem. I've never been one to be down on myself. In fact, I love myself! I feel beautiful and sexy (most of the time, LOL!) I do have father issues, maybe that has something to do with it?

[Shygirl]

I think saturn's presence in the 1st house can contribute to the father issues & subsequently to your other issues. if I can find some good resources, I'll come back & post some more on this.

[Angeline Elise]

I'm going to jump in a bit here there are a couple things that catch my eye...first off your 1st house Saturn. Usually this gives a hindrance to your self image.

You may find yourself constantly fighting off the "I'm not good enough" feeling and I would believe it's effects are enhanced by it being square your sun, venus and mars in the 4th and 5th houses you may sometimes feel inadequate at home and at work!

Also that 1st house Aries Saturn is the ruler of your MC, you may find you have to fight a lot to make your presence in your career , even if it's just fighting off your own insecurities and being assertive.

Your 12th house moon in Pisces makes you understand the nature of addiction and empathetic towards addicts but also can make you trend towards self destructive behavior as well...what coping methods do you use to deal with your stresses in life? Is it perhaps saving others? Or is there something more?

With your Sun, Venus, Mars, and Mercury ruled by the moon, you may come off as quite a withdrawn person, but it's actually a good thing for you to occasionally separate yourself to compose your emotions and thoughts....but don't fall into it too much.

I'm going to throw this out there...do you have children or want them? You have this AMAZING stellium in cancer the sun and mars (your chart ruler) are in the 4th house making you the very definition of a nurturing, domestic goddess! You may find much of your life revolves around your family you grew up with as well.

Immersing yourself in the role of nurturer to people who are worthy (usually close family and friends) and finding an outlet for your own creativity (with that 5th house Cancer Venus) would be whats best for you.

[Moonmaiden68]

You may find yourself constantly fighting off the "I'm not good enough" feeling and I would believe it's effects are enhanced by it being square your sun, venus and mars in the 4th and 5th houses you may sometimes feel inadequate at home and at work!

Also that 1st house Aries Saturn is the ruler of your MC, you may find you have to fight a lot to make your presence in your career , even if it's just fighting off your own insecurities and being assertive.

Agreed...it was much more present when I was younger. I never thought I was good enough or smart enough to do what I really wanted to do for a profession (nursing) and so I ended up not furthering my education after highschool. Also..now that you mention it, I have had those feelings at home as well. Both my mother (gemini) and brother (capricorn) are extremely smart and I was always the one who struggled with learning. I was diagnosed with ADD and Dyslexia AFTER I graduated highschool. So growing up, I always felt like I couldn't compete with them and sometimes I still get those feelings. I'm a really good cook but often I never think I'm good enough.


Your 12th house moon in Pisces makes you understand the nature of addiction and empathetic towards addicts but also can make you trend towards self destructive behavior as well...what coping methods do you use to deal with your stresses in life? Is it perhaps saving others? Or is there something more?

Yeah..I have struggled with addictive behavior myself. Not drugs..but food, alcohol, Caffiene & shopping. When I am stressed, I go to the mall and spend money like it's going out of style. I do like to drink and I have noticed that It could turn into a problem so I keep a check on it. I have many family members who are also addicts (alcoholism runs in both sides of my family) so I am very aware when it comes to that. I am an emotional eater as well and have struggled with my weight my whole life. Saving others could also be a form of self-destructive behavior. I have never thought of it that way.

Just to touch on the other things you said...I am a bit withdrawn sometimes - I am one of those people that needs "me time" if I have too many things (committments) going on at once, I get anxiety LOL! So..I just go off on my own..but at the same time, I am a people person and I do like to be around people (especially positive, upbeat people) so I would not consider myself a 'loner'. Children is what I live for. I have always wanted them ever since I can remember. Unfortunately, I have not had the opportunity to have any of my own. I do have children around me which makes me very blessed! My family and close friends are very important to me and I am very much the nurturer for them all. I am typical cancer when it comes to all of that. Cooking and Baking and throwing parties at my home is what makes me happy =)

Thanx for all your wonderful insights...as much as I may cringe when I read some of the stuff, I feel that knowing your weaknesses helps you to become a stronger person.

[Jillian]

Hi,
I noticed your Venus in Leo. I would say your need to be appreciated, and loved ( for all the good things you like to do for others) would explain your tendency to rescue and help others. You do these things (rescuing, helping others deal with addictions)because you feel it is the right thing to do and you are empathetic. It is a great quality and can also be destructive if you lose yourself or ultimately find that your efforts were not appreciated. I am new in Astrology ( but studying hard) so I am careful about what I can contribute in the way of interpretations. You have a very interesting chart. Thank goodness there are a lot of very knowledgeable members on this site.

[Jillian]

Oops your Venus is really in Cancer, but maybe Leo is still influencing it? Somebody help me out!! Wow I screwed up ( Virgo's don't like that) -Jillian