Dreaming the Answers... Scorpio and Gemini?

[scorpchick]

I've always believed that dreams are our subconcious' way of trying to find solutions to problems that we can't in the light of day. Last night I had a dream that I know was in regards to what's been going on with me but I'm still trying to fully understand it. I know some of you have read my scorpio saga and it's been sitting with me a lot lately. I'm trying to decide what is the best next step for me to take, controlling my actions to look out for my best interest. I'm not willing to sit and wait and deal with this push/pull whenever my scorpio feels like it. I am trying to resolve in my heart what I personally need and can live with or without. Last night I was re-reading a lot of my writing from 4-5 years ago - it's pretty reflective of where I see the scorpio boy currently struggling. I cannot "help" him figure out what's in his head but I can remind myself what I went through and how I felt at the time. What did I need in those moments and it's was always one of two things - to be left to retreat and lick my wounds so that I'd be ready to come back for more and it was also to be held in place by that one person that I did connect to - I wanted them to pin me down and make me face the music so to speak rather than being allowed to run and hide. I was totally stuck in terms of what actions to take with the ex.

This leads into my dream - I don't know where we were - but it was a comfortable apartment, not mine or his though. The glass doors led out onto a large body of water (ocean?) however and it was very relaxed and comfortable. He showed up. Just showed up out of the blue but somehow knew how to find me, knew where I'd be. He sat down beside me and I was kind of shocked that he was there, unexpected. I just waited, and then he started talking. Really talking - about this thing that was going on between us, about our connection and how it was the right thing but that he didn't know how to make it work, to be in it. We were touching at this point - just a a link formed between us and my response to him was that we had to work on communicating - saying what we couldn't. I admitted that although I was completely into him that I probably hadn't expressed it very well and that I wanted to do better with that - and we just continued to talk. More open than we'd ever previously been and then my alarm went off! I don't know where it went... I just know one more confusing thing and perhaps someone can help me out with it:

I had a flash of Gemini right before it ended. This morning I looked at our charts (I don't know his ascendant because I don't know his birth time) but neither of us have Gemini in our planets. The only place that Gemini showed up (that I know of) was in my 5th and 6th houses. I'm not sure if Gemini is perhaps doing something in our sky or if it's going to, perhaps that was it. Anyone have any thoughts on how this may relate to the on-going saga and to my dream?

[scorpchick]

Well all seemed well and good even after the break up with him initiating contact and stuff but then we both went away for 5 days and since we've both been back he's been pretty distant which is making me now question absolutely everything about our relationship - I mean I know deep down that what we had was real and that he obviously felt something for me but I'm starting to wonder if there's something that has since changed (I keep thinking that he's maybe seeing someone else which probably isn't the case but where my mind keeps going anyway). I'm starting to look for patterns in my life where someone got too close and then how did I react to see if there's something like that going on with him. I'm backing away, I just can't be invested until he shows a bit more to me. If he does come back around I'm going to be very upfront about what I need because obviously we're incapable of being friends at this point - at least he is - I'd hang out with him but he can't (won't?) make time for me.

[dirtyblonde00]

oh girlie this is so similar to my current situation, it's just not good. :(

[scorpchick]

I found the place from this dream... I was recently in a suite in Hawaii and it all came flooding back - the view out the window, the set up of the room - it was the place that I was in. The boy didn't show up (not surprising) but the first part was there... now I wonder where/when the Gemini will follow into play...

[dirtyblonde00]

oh wow how crazy! how are you doing? I haven't talked to my scorpio in 3 months!! It's officially over I'm sure